Saturday, January 23, 2010

After Midnight

I go out walkin'
I am restless
I need to think
Thoughts are restless

After midnight
Explore possibilities in dreams without feeling guilty - it's subconscious
Dangerous, taking a risk
Vulnerable while we sleep

Out in the moonlight
Moon - nightly changes
Hesitant to see the world in full light
Moonlight - restores confidence that danger of dark withholds
Truth, guiding light in darkness
Casts different shadows, see the world differently
Turns the world inside-out
Fear things normally don't
Brave things normally won't

Just like we used to do/Just hopin' you may be
Past and present coexist
If I can't think in "we" terms, I think next of "you" first
Relive the past
"Hope" for a confrontation of past and present
"Like" only approximates reality
Actions can be repeated without achieving the same result
Nothing will ever be exactly as it was no matter how much we hope for it to be
"Maybe" you can save me; you are my only hope
You are my first and last thought; first through remembering, last through hoping
I don't know who we are anymore
I don't know who you are
I hope I'll recognize you

I'm always walkin'/Somewhere a walkin'
I'm always restless
I'm always thinking
I'm always looking ahead
I'm always moving forward
Walkin - I never expect to win; I only expect to finish
I'm always taking care not to get hurt
I'm always taking my time
I'm slow
I'm hesitant to move forward
I'm hesitant to move on
I linger
I am careful at the expense of expediency
I am expedient at the expense of being stationary, being still
I cannot be still with you
I still cannot be with you
Not ever; always
Your place is undefined; "somewhere"
Somewhere, you're like me
You're restless too
Thinking
Wandering
Taking forever to get to me
Taking your time getting to me
Taking your time realizing you can't live without me
Because you are "somewhere" you are separate from me
Are you "a walkin'" toward me or away?
If you are walkin' away, the distance will grow, may never be overcome
If you are walkin' toward me, the distance between us
remains constant
The only way for it to be overcome is for you to hurry
That is not the only way. I can stop. Until your somewhere matches mine.